Payton and My Tattoo

Almost four years ago my daughter Payton Elizabeth LeeAnn past away. Three days after she passed, my mom, sister, and I got a tattoo of Payton's footprints. I always said I wanted to do more to the tattoo. And after so many people made nasty sly comments about the her footprints. I also have gotten a ton of great comments also. I decided I wanted to get angel wings and her name. Saturday night I finally decided to get my Payton tattoo finished. Now everyone will know who my beautiful guardian angel is!

It is still very red and hurts like crazy! When it is completely healed I will post another pictures.

I am so happy it is finally getting finished. I still plan on adding the dates, getting her footprints darkened, and getting a little more pink added to it as well.

St. Patty's Day!!

Oh how I love St. Patty's Day. It is such a fun holiday! D and I started a couple of weeks ago by printing out shamrocks and a couple other coloring sheets from www.familyfun.com. This morning I started our corn beef, potatoes, and cabbage in our crock pot. I started cooking my corn beef in a crock pot, the year James and I lived with his family. We fell in love with it fast. It cooks all day, and it so easy and so delicious!!


Dyllan and I made gold out of jello and green shamrock cookies. For lunch I made Dyllan and I shamrock peanut butter sandwiches with zucchini and celery, and of course served Dyllan's on a green plate. Of course Dyllan and I where both in green all day long. For dinner we made freshly squeezed limeade and had our yummy corn beef. Which I was waiting all day for. After dinner we went on a nice much needed walk. He is even wearing green pj's right now, LOL!! Dyllan and I had a wonderful St. Patty's Day. We hope your families did as well!! What are some of your families St. Patty's Day traditions?

CVS Deals 2-24-10

I have always loved coupons. My lovely sister Di has gotten me hooked on shopping at CVS. In the last few weeks I have found some great deals. This week has been my far my best week thus far. I took some pictures and have my list so you'll can see how great CVS is.


~Pampers Baby Dry 82 count box. Bonus one Venus Embrace Razor. Sale price with Extra Care Card, $18.99
~Almay Intense I-Color Mascara. Bonus Intense I-Color Eyeliner. Sale price with Extra Care Card, $9.99
~Almay Smart Shade Foundation. Bonus Smart Shade Concealer. Sale price with Extra Care Car,d $5.99
~Colgate Max Fresh Toothpaste. Sale price with Extra Care Card, $0.99
~Softsoap Shea Butter hand soap. Sale price with Extra Care Card, $0.99
~Sweatheart 20 individual packs. Sale price $0.49
~Dum Dum Valentine kit for 28. Sale price $0.99

I had $21.01 in coupons and CVS Extra Care Bucks. I spent $17.42 before taxes. I saved $41.21!! I hope this will encourage more people to start shopping smarter. I hope you'll enjoyed!! Have fun shopping!!

Highway Patrols!!

I love my Marriage and Family class, but tonight was the first night of small groups. I had no idea it was pretty much going to be group counseling. It was ok. I'm sure it will get much better, but I love the class. I would recommend anyone taking the class. I think with the small groups I will learn how to open up with more people better. I think that makes since. LOL! The most exciting part of my day was getting pulled over this evening. Funny I know.

I was driving home from school, nearing my exit to get off the freeway. I started to get over, and then the damn car wouldn't let me over. You know when the car won’t speed up or slow down? Yeah that's what was happening. Finally he realized I was trying to get over, and slowed down. That is when I realized it was a Highway Patrol. Then he proceeds to follow me and pulls me over. So I didn't know going 60 MPH was slow, but according to the Highway Patrol it was. And he thought I was on my cell phone, but really I was on my Bluetooth. All is good, I felt kind of bad for him because He seemed bad that he had made a mistake!
So it is said that the highlight of my day was getting pulled over and the Highway Patrol Office not really having a clue what to say. LOL. I hope you enjoyed!

Fingerprint Friday!

Every week Pampering Becki hosts Fingerprint Friday. These posts are based on the song “Fingerprints of God” by Steven Curtis Chapman. Several of us bloggers blog about a picture we find each week that we see God’s Fingerprints on. You can check out her sight for more details.


My wonderful boyfriend, James Edward Brooks, sent me this picture the other day. He is starting to train for his twelve month deployment to Iraq, with the Army. I am choosing this picture and him on this Fingerprint Friday because he could be home helping his Dad with his Mom's lung cancer, (that she was diagnosed with a week after he left for Hawaii.) He could get out and come home, but he is staying to do what he feels like he needs to do for our country. I am very proud of him and worry about him everyday. I know he will be just fine with his fast approaching deployment. I can not wait to see him when he comes home, and I am sure I will be writing many more blogs about him here soon.

Fingerprint Friday!

Every week Pampering Becki hosts Fingerprint Friday. These posts are based on the song “Fingerprints of God” by Steven Curtis Chapman. Several of us bloggers blog about a picture we find each week that we see God’s Fingerprints on. You can check out her sight for more details.




I took a funny picture of my cousin Matt, who has been a rock in my life since I was a child. We are more like siblings then cousins. Sadly we do not spend as much time together, as we did when we where kids, but every time we do we always have a wonderful time. My cousin Matt was the star football player for Taft High all through high school, and already had many scholarship opportunities. When he was 16 he found out he was going to be a father. Instead of ditching out on his child's life, he quit the football team and got a full time job to take care of his family. I am very proud of the man my cousin as become. He has a wonderful wife and two beautiful children. It is a blessing to see him with his children, and it is quit funny how much I see him in his son Zack. He however does not think it is always that funny. He also already has the gun ready when Miss Alexis Ann brings the first boy over. Now it is amazing to be able to watch our children play together! I love them with all of my heart!

Crazy Times

I have been told that I need to start blogging again by a certain someone. I haven't been blogging because I feel like you should be able to write what ever you want. Isn't a blog suppose to be like an online journal? Being that I have people constantly watching me I can't really say what I want to say. Well that is what I thought, but recently I have decided I don't care what people think. The only person I should be worrying about is God. I need to ask myself "is God ok with the disions I have mean making?" I know he isn't ok with some of them, but I have asked God for forgiveness. I shouldn't have to ask any one else for forgiveness. Guess what, I have decided I'm not going to! If you all don't want to be a part of mine and my son's life then so be it don't. Your not hurting us. I wish people would just think before saying thing. Think back to when they where doing things that I'm sure they where not asking God if what they where doing was ok. No one is perfect and that is why God gave up his only son for our sins! Do you think God is ok with your gossiping about me? Or do you think God would want you to help me grow in him?
I realized on Sunday, that the only person I need is God. I enjoy having people in my life, and I know some of those people love that I allow them to stay in my life. Am I sick and tired of people saying stuff behind my back? Heck, yes, I am, but I know God is watching them to. Do you think he approves? Not a chance.
The important thing is I am learning from my mistakes, and making things much better for my son and I. I never thought this would be happening to me, but I'm not the only one this has happened to. I just need to move on and get over it. I am very thankful to have the people I have in my life. I love that they enjoy watching Dyllan grow and learn just as much as I do. My son is my whole world, and I am trying my hardest to be the best parent I can be. When I fall down, I pick myself up, brush myself off and ask God, "what else do you have for me?" The things I do, I do for God and Dyllan! I don't do them for anyone else. If people can't see I'm trying, then they don't need to be in my life.
Every single person who is a live today has made some sort if mistake. No one is perfect, don't even try because it wont happen. I hope everyone will open there eyes and realize these things. I'm back to blogging, because I do miss it, and I know at least one person does as well.

Why Good friends who become family are a must.

Dyllan and I where sitting at home, bored out of are minds. Ok, he wasn't, he was entertaining himself with my lap top and cell phone cords. I know, just lovely. He has 80 billion toys (or so it seems, when I'm picking them up every night). But I love him and he so knows it.
I really wanted to get out of the house and finally could drive somewhere, thanks to my wonderful friend Timothy, who fixed my car for me. But back to my original thoughts. I have been thinking about Di and Linda lately. How I miss them, and Nana Linda has not met Dyllan. (I know sad, he is almost a year old) I decided to text Di and see how her night was going. We both had no idea what we where going to do for dinner. Then we decided, hey why not go to dinner. I mat them at there house. I finally got to see Linda's wonderful new house. Dyllan of course got into anything and everything he could. Nana Linda's house is not quit Dyllan proofed yet. And I swear Dyllan is why smarter then his own good. I think he even ate some cat food tonight.
Dinner was wonderful. Oh how I missed La Comdia. And then of course we went shopping. Di and I got more matching clothes. I know it's said. But we like the same things. (I'm so waring my new comfy capris as I'm sitting here typing this.)
It was something I needed. A girls night out, well of course Dyllan was there. I hope we start hanging out more often. I don't normally go out with just the girls. I have a hard time getting out of the house sometimes. I'm not really sure why. I just do. I guess it might be becasue I'm a little ashamed of the reasons why I moved back to Chico. I know I defiantly shouldn't be, at all. But it just seems like when I see old friends they judge me becasue I left my husband and now am back. I'm trying to get over it. Life is just crazy, and it makes me even crazy. Which is so not a good thing.
My family has grown so much over the past few years. It is sad that I'm closer to my "adopted" sisters then my own sister. But that's the way the cookie crumbles. I'm not sure what I would do with out the women in my life. They keep me together. I love my whole crazy big family.

I hate not having anything to do.

I haven't had Dyllan since about 10:00 am today. So far I have been to the vet with my Mom. Saw my sister and brother-in-law and nieces for a short time, oh and started laundry. The days I have Dyllan I can think of so many things to do, but are way easier if he wasn't with me. But no, not today. I'm sitting in my bedroom, typing away. How freakin lame am I? I could be out shopping, Ok well window shopping, hanging out with my friends, seeing a darn movie, but nope. Still just typing away. I'm lame, I tell you! So now I'm thinking of things that I could be doing instead. Oh and I remember, my car is dead. I'm still not sure what is wrong with it, but I don't really have the money to fix her. Oh what to do now? Well I'm off to play with the dogs in the water. Hey why not? I don't have anything better to do.

I Dream of Disney

Disneyland seems to make all the horrible stuff go away. Well at least for the time your there. My last trip to Disneyland was wonderful. Even though my husband and I had decided to separate a few weeks before our trip. We decided to still go becasue of the family we where going with. My "adopted" sister's made the trip wonderful. It was a trip that I will never forget. It was not only my sons first trip (defiantly not his last), but my three nieces as well. It was defiantly something I needed. Well I need it again. My Disney therapy I mean. My life has been so crazy the last few months, that a trip to Disney would be wonderful.
The good news is, is it looks like we will be heading to Disneyland in October when my brother Scott, comes home from his current deployment. This time we will have more people, which means a ton more fun. My son will be older and more alert.