I have been told that I need to start blogging again by a certain someone. I haven't been blogging because I feel like you should be able to write what ever you want. Isn't a blog suppose to be like an online journal? Being that I have people constantly watching me I can't really say what I want to say. Well that is what I thought, but recently I have decided I don't care what people think. The only person I should be worrying about is God. I need to ask myself "is God ok with the disions I have mean making?" I know he isn't ok with some of them, but I have asked God for forgiveness. I shouldn't have to ask any one else for forgiveness. Guess what, I have decided I'm not going to! If you all don't want to be a part of mine and my son's life then so be it don't. Your not hurting us. I wish people would just think before saying thing. Think back to when they where doing things that I'm sure they where not asking God if what they where doing was ok. No one is perfect and that is why God gave up his only son for our sins! Do you think God is ok with your gossiping about me? Or do you think God would want you to help me grow in him?
I realized on Sunday, that the only person I need is God. I enjoy having people in my life, and I know some of those people love that I allow them to stay in my life. Am I sick and tired of people saying stuff behind my back? Heck, yes, I am, but I know God is watching them to. Do you think he approves? Not a chance.
The important thing is I am learning from my mistakes, and making things much better for my son and I. I never thought this would be happening to me, but I'm not the only one this has happened to. I just need to move on and get over it. I am very thankful to have the people I have in my life. I love that they enjoy watching Dyllan grow and learn just as much as I do. My son is my whole world, and I am trying my hardest to be the best parent I can be. When I fall down, I pick myself up, brush myself off and ask God, "what else do you have for me?" The things I do, I do for God and Dyllan! I don't do them for anyone else. If people can't see I'm trying, then they don't need to be in my life.
Every single person who is a live today has made some sort if mistake. No one is perfect, don't even try because it wont happen. I hope everyone will open there eyes and realize these things. I'm back to blogging, because I do miss it, and I know at least one person does as well.
